August 19, 2021
Special World Report

So Bad, So Dark, So Depressing

(31 Minutes) – Are you losing your hope that things can be changed? A Friend of Medjugorje explains how to break from the stalemate that seems to be hanging over the world right now, and the coming tribulation.

Episode Transcript



This is a Special World Report with a Friend of Medjugorje.




We’re seeing things that we knew would be coming, but at the same time, we didn’t know they would be coming. There’s so much strife, so much difficulties, so much fear and insecurity, that people don’t know which way to turn. You hear people saying, repeatedly, “I don’t know what’s happening.” It amazes me how silent the bishops are. There’s no vetting of the news and the events that’s happened in the world and applying it to Scriptures.


We’re in a biblical moment, and we get nothing from the pulpits like this. I’m not talking about getting identification of problems. We want to be solution-based. And that’s what Our Lady’s messages are about, and that’s what we are about as far as propagating Our Lady’s messages.


We’re going to play a clip, a father who has been in combat, and he’s addressing the county board in California. He’s fed up with the mask. He’s fed up with the shutdowns. And what he says is a sentiment of many, many people across the United States and the world. You’re going to hear more than frustration.




I wasn’t going to speak. I was asked to speak here, you know. Sheriff, good to see you.


I’m telling you guys, I’m pretty appalled at what’s going on, you know. At first, we sat as concerned citizens, that we all want to figure out how to best navigate our way through this whole COVID thing, you know? And as we realized that it’s not quite as dangerous as we thought it’d be, you know, I was absolutely appalled at the cowardice, you know. And as you’re sitting over there with your masks on, I don’t blame you for wearing masks because I’d be hiding my face too if I was you, for what you’re doing. This is absolutely horrendous what you’re doing to these people. I’m a business owner, and I’m telling you, our families are starving. You know, you guys can sit here with your jobs. You can sit here, and you’re going to get paid, and you fall asleep in your chair like that gentleman’s doing behind his mask right there, okay? And I’m telling you right now, that right now, we’re being peaceful, and you better be happy that we’re good citizens, that we’re peaceful citizens. But it’s not going to be peaceful much longer, okay? And this isn’t a threat. I’m not a criminal. I’ve never been a criminal. But I’m telling you, good citizens are going to turn into real concerned and revolutionary citizens real soon, and nobody else is going to say that. I’m probably the only person saying what I’m saying right now, that we’re building, we’re organizing, and we’ll work with law enforcement or without law enforcement. But you won’t stop us when time comes because our families are starving. And if you don’t hear the seriousness of my voice, I hope you open your eyes and you absolutely listen to what I’m saying, because this is a warning for what’s coming. It’s not going to be peaceful much longer. It’s not going to be rah rah. It’s not going to be speeches. It’s not going to be gathering outside saying the pledge of allegiance. It’s not going to be waving flags. It’s going to be real.


When you see the things that I have seen…I went to war for this country. I’ve seen the ugliest, dirtiest part of humanity. I’ve been in combat, and I never want to go back again. But I’m telling you what, I will to save this country. If it has be against our own citizens, it will happen. And there’s a million people like me, and you won’t stop us.


Open the county. Let our citizens do what they need to do! Let owners of businesses do what they need to do to feed their families! Take the masks off! Quit masking and muzzling your children! The psychological damage you’re doing to them is horrible. I’ve had six friends kill themselves since this happened. Veterans who lost their jobs. How do you feel about being complicit in perpetuating that? The greatest hoax ever perpetuated on the American people, and you’re part of it while you wear your masks.


In Shasta county, we’re supposed to be red country up here, not blue country. We’re red country up here. You guys know that. I mean, you claim to be conservatives. Maybe you’re not. Maybe you’re liberals. I don’t know. But by God, we’re Americans, and remember that. Take your masks off. Quit muzzling yourselves. Join us. Fight with us against what’s going on in Sacramento. It’s travesty. Thanks.




We’re in a moment of decision. People are being pushed one way or the other way. You no longer can be on the fence anymore. And this man’s right in what he’s saying.


In Jeremiah, chapter 29, God calls His people out of Israel to exile, and He sends them to a land where He says,


“This what the Lord Almighty, the God of Israel says…Build houses and settle down. Plant gardens and eat what they produce…”


And later, in verse 11, He says,


“…For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future…”


This is what Our Lady’s telling us. Marija just had a message, August 6, 2021. This is fresh. It was a surprise message because Marija only gets 25th messages. Why does all of a sudden Our Lady give this? Because what we see in the world right now.


Our Lady told Marija,


“…Without God you have no future or eternal life. For this, convert and return to God…”


Jeremiah, just quoted, said,


“…not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. You will seek Me and find Me, and I will be found by you…”


And this Scripture’s talking about, there were Israelites that did not leave Jerusalem. They stayed there. They disobeyed God. And so, he addresses those that stayed in Jerusalem, saying,


“…All the people who remain in the city…”


Jerusalem, when everybody else left and did their gardens and did what they were called to do,


“…Your fellow citizens who did not go with you into exile, this is what the Lord Almighty says: I will send the sword, famine, and plagues against them. I will make them like figs that are so bad they cannot be eaten. I will pursue them with the sword, famine and plague and will make them abhorrent to the kingdoms of the earth, a curse. For they have not listened to My words.”


Our Lady’s here forty years, giving us words, showing these things.


Ivan just had a message, August 14th. This is fresh. What’s going on in the world now, today? What do you see? What are you hearing about? From this guy all the way to the Taliban? Our Lady told Ivan,


“Pray especially for all those who are in fear and insecurity.”


Do you think these people, the Americans, and the other Afghanis, are in fear and in security? Here it is, fresh from Heaven, Our Lady is saying, “Pray for these people.” Everybody’s tuning into the news. Others are turning away because they’re sick of it. They don’t want to see it. But you can’t put your head in the ground like an ostrich. You have to put the template of the messages over the events that’s happening, because big things are happening at this moment.


We have reporters, we have talk show hosts, people saying, “I don’t know what’s going on.” “What’s happening to the world?” “Why are these things happening?” It’s because of sin, and it’s because of my sin. It’s because of your sins. Our Lady’s showing us to gather into community, to become one.


When He exiled His people, He said,


“…settle down. Plant gardens, eat what they produce…”


This is what the Community of Caritas is about. We still have to work in the world. We have to run the mission, and we have to build our agrarian system. So, that’s a triple cross for us. It’s very difficult. And we’ve been working at it for years. And I thank God I started the path forty-five years toward that walk.


Those Israelites who listened to God, He prospered because they got next to the soil. Our Lady gave a message saying,


“…Be…bearers of peace and love that it may be good for you on earth…”


What does that mean? If you’re not bearers of peace, if you’re warring, it’s not going to be good for you on earth. What happened to God’s people when they were obedient? That’s what we have to navigate to at this moment.



In the beginning of May of this year, a Friend of Medjugorje gathered the Community together to do a mini retreat. And it’s because he had been watching, over the past six months, really looking at the messages that Our Lady was giving, and he was being given some very profound insights that he wanted to share with the Community. We then put it into the June Words of the Harvesters because we wanted to share it with other people as well. And so, we are going to read that to you tonight. It’s his words, a Friend of Medjugorje’s words to the Community, but we want to share it with you because the insights are so powerful that we feel that it would be very beneficial for you as well.


“I’ve been watching Our Lady’s messages for the last six months and I want to go back these six months and read some things to you of what Our Lady has said. She has been ramping up the tone and seriousness of Her messages. Our Lady does not reveal things, nor does God reveal things, except through those who are really seeking, fasting, praying and who are really watching. Our Lady told us to listen to Her. Yet, we still have the major body of Medjugorje followers only interested in reading Her messages, but not changing their lives. But as we advance towards June 24 and 25, 2021, to celebrate Our Lady’s 40th Anniversary of Her apparitions in Medjugorje, Our Lady has been saying something important to us. If we start back last year, six months ago, it would bring us to December 2020. Our Lady said on December 25, 2020:


‘…do not permit for your faith and hope in a better future to be extinguished…’


“People normally just gloss over these words. They hear Our Lady say, ‘We are going to have a future. It is not going to be extinguished.’ No. That is not what She is saying.  What She is saying is that we are all going to be tested.  We are coming into a period of serious testing.


‘…do not permit for your faith and hope in a better future to be extinguished…’


“Why is She saying this? Because there are things that are going to come, things that we are going to be faced with that will challenge our faith and hope. Whatever we are going to experience, whatever the world is going to experience, there will be billions who will lose their faith and their hope. In what? In a better future. To me, what Our Lady is saying is that there is something that is going to be so bad, so dark, so depressing, that people will lose their faith, they will lose their hope that things are going to change. And whatever it is, we are headed to it right now because Our Lady has not missed one single month, in the last six months, in warning us that something is coming. Her warnings are, as I said, ramping up for where we are headed. Again, read Her words of December 25, 2020:


‘…do not permit for your faith and hope in a better future to be extinguished…’


“Why? Because:


‘…you are chosen to be witnesses of hope in every situation…’


“What is She talking about? What situations? She said it will look like hope for a better future, our future, is going to be extinguished. And just at that point you, we, will have to be the witnesses of hope in these devastating situations. You, we will have to be the ones to deliver hope through your, our witness. Then She says this:


‘…that is why I am here…’


“The next month, which is the first month of the New Year, on January 25, 2021, knowing that this month begins the trail that will lead to the 40th anniversary of Her apparitions, Our Lady says:


‘…This is a time of awakening and giving birth…Be joyful bearers of peace and love that it may be good for you on earth…’


“Is that a warning? Is She giving a hint of something that She can’t fully tell us, but is enough for those who are attuned to Her messages? I’m telling you—get ready, be ready, because it’s coming. It’s not going to be easy.


‘…Be joyful bearers in peace and love that it may be good for you on earth…’


“Meaning, it’s not going to be good for a lot of people, even for those who are following Our Lady, if they haven’t been serious, if they haven’t been seeking, haven’t been thinking, praying…fasting [and obedient]. From December 2020, to January 2021, we go to the next month, February 2021. We won’t skip any months, all the way up to our current time. Our Lady said this in February:


February 25, 2021


‘…be witnesses of hope…I repeat to you, little children, that with prayer and fasting also wars can be suppressed…’


“You don’t need to suppress a war if there is no war. This is not a 15-year-old message. This is a message She gave only five months ago. She is telling us through fasting and praying, wars can be suppressed. Some may suggest She is just repeating what She said many years ago. But as the message continues, we see She is addressing this time specifically:


‘…live this time of grace in faith…’


“Faith is the key, the key, to survive and live through whatever Our Lady is warning us about.


‘…live this time of grace in faith and with faith; and my Immaculate Heart does not leave any of you in peacelessness if you have recourse to me…’


“What are the Protestants going to do and those of other faiths? What are the people who know Our Lady, but who have rejected Her going to do? What of those people who have gone away from Her messages because it was just another fad for them and they went on to something else? [Our Lady continues]


‘…my Immaculate Heart does not leave any of you in peacelessness if you have recourse to me. I intercede for you before the Most High, and I pray for peace…’


“And here it is again…[as Our Lady continues]


‘…and for hope for the future…’


“If the events She is speaking of are not going to be difficult and challenging to course through, She wouldn’t be praying for hope for the future. The next month we go into is March. Our Lady says:


 March 25, 2021

‘…today, I am with you to tell you: Little children, who prays does not fear the future and does not lose hope…’


“I have said this hundreds of times over the years that if Our Lady is talking of the future and saying not to lose hope, it means that there is going to be a lot of lack of hope in [the hearts of people]. And then She adds to this [saying]:


‘…the devil wants peacelessness and war, he wants to fill your heart[s] with fear of the future—but the future is God’s…’


“You can see now this pattern. Our Lady is very serious.  She is moving month by month by month to the eve of Her 40th Anniversary, June 24th. April follows March. Our Lady says in a message given through Medjugorje visionary, Ivan [on]:


April 16, 2021

‘…this is the time of responsibility, accept and live my messages responsibly…allow God to speak to your heart…’


“She is saying it depends on you whether you will allow God to speak to your heart so that He will be able to show you, teach you, lead you and be able to use you. [Our Lady’s message continues]


‘…allow God to speak to your heart. satan wants to reign and destroy your life…be persevering, courageous, patient and strong…’


“Moving on to Our Lady’s April 25, 2021 message, She says:


‘…Today, I am calling you to witness your faith in the colors of spring…’


“This is [puzzling].  What does that mean?  It has to do with something of the agrarian life, of what we are supposed to be doing in this time, our preparations. [Our Lady continues]


‘…May this be a faith of hope and courage.  May your faith, little children, not waiver in any situation…’


“There’s the negative part, ‘do not waiver in any situation.’ Why does She say this again? Because there are situations coming down the road to us that none of us are going to be happy with. She is warning us, through Her messages, that whatever the situations are, they are going to be a reality. [She continues, saying]


‘…May your faith, little children, not waiver in any situation, not even in this time of trial…’


“There are going to be trials. We have had trials for 40 years ourselves, with all the things we have gone through.  We are in a trial now. How does Our Lady want us to proceed through this time of trials?  She says:


‘…Go courageously…’


“We are headed to something that is going to require courage. On May 4, 2021, Ivan [gave a testimony before his] apparition in which he spoke of the time we are living in. He said…:


‘Do not forget that you are living in a time of grace. Do not close yourselves. Use this time to seek the gift of peace in your lives.’


“People aren’t doing this. They have a false sense of security, thinking everything is going to just continue like it is. Everything is going to be okay. But Ivan is saying…of what he knows through Our Lady, and he knows a lot of details…[that] it is in this time that we are supposed to be working…[and preparing] ourselves.


[This is what will bring peace. Do this now, as Ivan says,]


‘…so that you [will] become witnesses for others.’


“Why? Because people are going to be desperate.  [We must always] have our act together [speaking first to the Community of Caritas], [otherwise] how can we witness to [others]?  We are the most prepared group of people, as a body, in regard to the alignment of the messages in putting ourselves in a position to be the witnesses of the whole world.  But even we are not ready. [Ivan says]


‘…Use this time to seek the gift of peace in your lives so that you become witnesses for others. Our Lady calls us so that our lives become a decision for peace.’


“The decision is for peace. How do you have peace?  You have peace if you are living according to what God has shown you to live. We know it is the Corona Vision, it’s a way of life in living Our Lady’s messages. Ivan goes on to say [on May 4, 2021]:


‘We live in a time of grace in which God is giving us great graces. Our Lady calls us to witness, each of us become a witness.  This peace will give the strength to bear witness to the whole world through our martyrs.’


“What does that mean?  Why does he speak of martyrs? He’s not talking about 2,000 years ago. He offers no explanation. He ends his testimony saying what Our Lady did in his apparition of May 4, 2021 [He said]:


‘For a long time, Our Lady prayed for peace in the world and for families.’


“Ivan said, ‘Don’t close yourselves.’ Take time in prayer and really enter into these messages of Our Lady and seek from God what actions to take in this time—both spiritually and physically. Do not become paralyzed with fear.  “Christian writer, C.S. Lewis, lived in England during World War II, and faced with his countrymen the possibility of complete annihilation of everything held dear due to the aggressiveness of Nazi Germany to conquer and destroy their nation. Yet, he refused to succumb to defeat, hopelessness, fear or despair. We who have lived with the knowledge of the atomic bomb and the devastation it can cause for the past 76 years, forget the horror of reading of it for the first time in newspaper headlines and radio broadcasts when Hiroshima and Nagasaki were torn to shreds by the bomb. The threats waging against the entire world today, far surpass the devastation of atomic bombs, but listen to the good advice C.S. Lewis spoke to his own people consumed with fear of impending doom. [Lewis said, quote,]


‘In one way we think a great deal too much of the atomic bomb. “How are we to live in an atomic age?” I am tempted to reply: “Why, as you would have lived in the sixteenth century when the plague visited London almost every year, or as you would have lived in a Viking age when raiders from Scandinavia might land and cut your throat any night; or indeed, as you are already living in an age of cancer; an age of syphilis, an age of paralysis; an age of air raids, an age of railway accidents, an age of motor accidents.”


‘In other words, do not let us begin by exaggerating the novelty of our situation.  Believe me, dear sir or madam, you and all whom you love were already sentenced to death before the atomic bomb was invented: and quite a high percentage of us were going to die in unpleasant ways. We had, indeed, one very great advantage over our ancestors—anesthetics; but we have that still. It is perfectly ridiculous to go about whimpering and drawing long faces because the scientists have added one more chance of painful and premature death to a world which already bristled with such chances and in which death itself was not a chance at all, but a certainty.


‘This is the first point to be made: and the first action to be taken is to pull ourselves together. If we are all going to be destroyed by an atomic bomb, let that bomb when it comes find us doing sensible and human things—praying, working…—not huddled together like frightened sheep and thinking about bombs. They may break our bodies (a microbe can do that) but they need not dominate our minds.’ [End of quote]


“Our Lady very clearly says that She wants to use each and every one of us to bring hope and faith to people in the very time when things fall apart. [She says] ‘…Go courageously…,’…Therefore, number one, do everything you can to be ready for whatever the future may hold, number two, place everything else in the hands of God and Our Lady, and number three, continue to live your life with the confidence that you are a child of Our Lady. Live in peace, in joy, in faith, in repentance and forgiveness and bring the ‘Light’ of Our Lady’s love to everyone you meet and to every place…Our Lady said, ‘…my Immaculate Heart does not leave any of you in peacelessness if you have recourse to me…’


“In the Peace of Our Lady that Surpasses All Understanding,

A Friend of Medjugorje”



And I’d like to add a comment after that reading, is that I’ve been here for over thirty-one years, and I can say that, in every retreat that a Friend of Medjugorje has done for the Community or even to a larger degree when we have pilgrimages here, the Holy Spirit is very much with him, and many, many times, he says things that are prophetic. You know, he said these words to us four months ago, and he had been looking at the messages six months before that. And Our Lady was opening up his heart to the messages, not just to what She was saying at that time, but to what She was speaking about in the future. And when you listen to these words that he spoke to us in May, we’re seeing the reality of that being played out right now in what’s going on in the world today. And if you go back into a lot of his writings, his booklets, his books, you are going to see just how strongly the Holy Spirit and Our Lady spoke to him and gave him and understanding in a prophetic way of what would be taking place in the future and what we’re living in now.



Going back to what I said in the retreat,


“…what Our Lady is saying is that there is something that is going to be so bad, so dark, so depressing, that people will lose their faith, [and] they will lose their hope that things are going to change…”


If you haven’t recently heard about this, I’m going to give you an atomic bomb. The bomb was dropped on Hiroshima. I was there a couple years ago. Only a couple, three hours away from there is a convent, and in that convent is a nun, and her name is Sister Agnes. She’s 88 years old. In the 1970s, she had apparitions of Our Lady and her guardian angel. The Church studied it for ten years or so, and they approved it. And in those apparitions, Our Lady showed Sister Agnes fire coming down from the heavens that would take place in the future.


I found out later, when I got back from Japan, that Sister Agnes had an apparition on October 6, 2019. And the angel gave her a message. The message she received says, quote,


“Cover yourself in ashes and please pray the Rosary for penance every day.”


Here it is, fifty years later, then she has another apparition. We see the tribulation at this moment. We can see Our Lady coming, what Revelation 13 talks about, the Woman giving birth. All these things are coming together.


And what happened two days later with Sister Agnes, the reading connected the message that Agnes got two days before that. The reading was about Jonah and Nineveh, who covered himself in sackcloth and ashes for penance.


The message is clear. Where we are today is not your interest, what you want to do, where you want to go, what you want to believe in, or what you want to accept into the future. It’s only with doing what Our Lady is saying. That’s our haven here in this community. And that’s why the Corona Vision is important. “Mega” is not going to be there tomorrow. Small communities. Our Lady’s forming us into that, and satan hates it. We’re a prototype. he’s always looking for ways to destroy us. The only way not to be destroyed is be obedient to the messages, obedient to the way of life, and Our Lady will lift the tribulations at the appointed time.




There’s a lot said in this broadcast tonight, and it’s worth for you to listen to it, not just once, or not just twice. Study it. There’s a lot of messages in there. I didn’t speak to the Community for six months what I was watching, one month after another what Our Lady’s doing, and now this is the reality of the time, in these days, it’s actually happening.


Pray for our mission. Pray we can expand Project 50 to fund this mission. We’re at a climax right now where we’ve been trying to get for a long, long time, and we depend on your prayers, your donations, your sacrifices. And we will rebound it back to you. Thank you for everything you do.


We wish you Our Lady. We love you. Good night.



6 thoughts on “So Bad, So Dark, So Depressing”

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  1. City: Beaufort
    State: South Carolina
    Country: USA
    Praise God for Caritas! I have the joy of being in the presence of the Community in June and August for Our Lady’s 2 special occasions!! My faith and hope are always refreshed when I see, hear, and feel your witness of peace and love and trust in Our Lady. Listening to this broadcast last night and re-reading the text this morning is the true “VACCINATION” any human body needs to boost its spiritual immunity in these serious times of trial and satanic hatred. With patience I KNOW Our Lady’s Heart will triumph. Thank you Friend of Medjugorje for your perseverance and continued prayers for your health and the entire Community.

  2. City: Beaumont
    State: TX
    Country: USA
    I continue to refuse to receive the shot and I am spreading the word as to why….it goes against my Christian beliefs. I even had the priest bless us after mass 2 wks ago because I’m traveling to Florida for business (hot Covid state) and taking my family. I told him I’m not taking the shot because it goes against my Christian beliefs. In mass this past Sunday he read a letter from our Bishop stating why we need to get the shot- as an act of love??? And he too agreed and encouraged the congregation to receive the shot. I don’t get it???? The lieing voices. Please pray for me. I know I need to do more and capable of it. I thank you so much FOM for these messages.

  3. City: River Forest
    State: Illinois
    Country: United States
    I read this message with such great urgency. I am grateful for the amount of blessings in my life. I hope for God, for Mary, and for heaven. I want all you to know that my sin, although hard at times, is nothing compared to what Our Lady offers us everyday. I will prepare for the upcoming trial the best I can. I thank you Mary for saving my life. I thank you A Friend Of Medjugorje for all you do. I hope this message comes to you with the peace I have received. I will pray a novena for your financial goal.

    Matthew Malone

  4. City: Knoxville
    State: TN
    Country: USA
    Keep your eyes fixed in Jesus’.He is The Truth and all will be revealed. We have recourse to Our Lady …pray, fast, hope… And Hold the Line.

  5. City: Houston
    State: Texas
    Country: United States
    Praise Be Jesus and Mary! This message is serious and SPOT ON! There where sooo many things spoken of in this Radio Wave World report that spoke volumes. I am just going to mention a couple that give this program (for me anyway) credibility I know Our Lady and A Friend Of Medjugorje needs no “proof” of anything that is said because truth will always prevail, but, as said in the program the world is infused with much confusion and darkness, so here goes: There is a prayer that my prayer group prays after each decade Of The Most Holy Rosary: “Oh Mary Conceived without sin pray for us who have Recourse to Thee”
    The second thing mentioned and most important is “Fire coming down from the heavens”. This immediately brought to mind Pompeii. A Friend Of Medjugorje in one of his Radio Wave programs spoke of Pompeii and what he said is “spot on”. I live close to a large city that currently as of now is running and exhibit in a Museum Called Pompeii, about the eruption Of Mr Vesuvius and what happened to it’s people.
    This exhibit is very well done and shows in detail what life was like at this time This exhibit had artifacts of buildings, paintings, statues, almost every detail of what it was like for the people of Pompeii.
    There even was an exhibit that showed the sins against purity that they where doing. (This Museum is very secular)
    This Museum even had casts of some of the the people who died. What was most enlightening to me was the fact that no one in Pompeii was prepared for what happened to them, despite at least two major earth quakes that occurred previously They didn’t have Our Lady like we do. Let’s all listen to this talk multiple times and take this seriously NOW!
    Special Blessings

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